Something.

betterofflost @ 2007-06-15T09:33:00

2007-06-15T13:41:24Z

First day of my summer!

Time to switch back to my other journal, ovejademagia, now, byee!!

a;boiue.

2007-05-22T22:37:26Z

ARRRGHH!!!!! People can suck it.

Makes me want to watch the movie (again) (and again)

2007-05-11T23:54:15Z

Leave just as you came
without a sound
nothing to ruffle your ends

I've been wadering around
making up movies in my...
so we say don't let it go
let me try and pull out my pride
I already forget how I used to feel about you

leave as fast as you came
no invitation
no where to go from here
I've been wandering around wondering how
I got so, got so...
so fucking bored all of a sudden
so fucking scared, I'm not scared
you'd mean so much more to me
you'd mean so much more if I remembered

never ever ever ever again. ever.

2007-05-09T20:01:39Z

No. Just, no. Ha.

I was worried that it wasnt going to work out between me and Josh....
Even if I wasn't with Josh, I wouldn't. Its not worth it anymore.
Everything is okay now, its great again.

betterofflost @ 2007-05-06T12:19:00

2007-05-06T16:21:35Z

I DROVE I DROVE!!!!
And we might not even get that car that I don't want, because the guy who has it didnt think we were "all that serious about buying it"
SO! We're going to go to car dealerships and ask if they have what I'm looking for. Not new, of course, but used. Itll be fun, I cant wait.

no wimt, who cares? "Asparagus for EVERYONE!" =)

2007-05-04T19:01:34Z

Tonight I think I'm going to the play with Ashley..And then when I get home Joshy is coming over until...I'm not sure... late. It'll be so much fun <3

Today,

2007-05-04T02:15:14Z

Everything seems so clear, I like the way the air smells.

I'm sleeping with my Mishka bear again tonight. I have been, for a while. I don't do it because she reminds me of him, but because she reminds me of how everything ends up alright in the end, no matter the pain. And although it doesnt seem it when it comes to me and him, it must be true, we're both happy the way it is. She's mine now, he said I could keep her.

Thankyou<3
parachutes

betterofflost @ 2007-04-27T22:09:00

2007-04-28T02:10:58Z

OMGOSH!
Joshy got me a stuffed animal chick, and I loved it so much that I thought it deserved the name Sonny. And then he added Fitzpatrick. So, welcome to the world little Sonny Fitzpatrick!

:D

2007-04-23T21:30:35Z

Alexxx made my day. Again.
She was telling me about her therapist and how she got her happy drugs, and I am very interested. I don't want to sit around and talk to someone about my "problems" just give me the prescription and I'll be fiiiine.

Today was wonderful.

I think I'll go hiking soon, I really like how the weather has been.

betterofflost @ 2007-04-22T10:40:00

2007-04-22T14:42:16Z

XD We now have $60 dollars worth of Chinese food, Oh my. It's amazing.

So much to do today! Bye!

betterofflost @ 2007-04-20T21:42:00

2007-04-21T01:44:18Z

I DID IT! I DID IT!
I just found my Rubik's cube pieces and put them back together! I'm missing 2 of the inside connectors, so one of the squares falls out if I turn it too much, but hey, it looks like it used to, atleast ^_^ I'm proud of myself.

betterofflost @ 2007-04-14T13:04:00

2007-04-14T17:04:45Z

I now have my permit

betterofflost @ 2007-04-12T15:21:00

2007-04-12T19:26:45Z

Time runs people's lives.

Today I stayed after again, my mom was really mad because she had to rush to go to a doctors appointment.
I stayed in the library for 5 minutes until Gerg showed up, and then we walked around the school in the rain and cold until we got to his car, then he dropped me off at Tirell to wait for my mother. Then I found one of my friends and since she had to wait a long time for her mom to pick her up, I asked my mom to bring her home. Now I'm home in my dry pajamas and its very nice. I hope it isnt like this tomorrow XD
I dont know what I'm doing this weekend, other than my birthday but even that isnt final, want to do something?

betterofflost @ 2007-04-07T15:31:00

2007-04-07T19:34:17Z

Jimbie!! You are away on AIM!
(I hope you check this) ha. I'll leave you a message online too just in case.
I have to leave soon, Josh is coming over, but I told him I was probably going to the movies with you later, so call me!!!
I hope we end up doing something, bye buddy!

betterofflost @ 2007-04-05T20:57:00

2007-04-06T01:02:15Z

Woo, what a...fun(?) day.
First, I had plans with Joshy to go to a show, then I ended up not going because my parents got home too late,
Then, I had plans with Jimbie to see a movie, but that didnt work becuase I dont even know why.
And then, I had plans with Brandon to do whatever. I could still go to a movie with him (its only 9) But I just won't bring it up, hes talking to people anyways.

I should have gone to the movies with Jimbie....*sigh*
Anyways! I ended up going bra shopping, how AWESOME is that? :P We saw my moms friend, who is also friends with Josh's parents, and she was like "WHAT are those!? Those are way too sexy" And I was like "o.O *awwwkwaaard*" Hahaha
I'm back home now, so I think I'll watch my movie and talk to people :)
PEACE.

betterofflost @ 2007-04-04T14:58:00

2007-04-04T19:00:10Z

And there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here I rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

"Love hurts, and sometimes that's what's so great about it"

2007-04-02T02:20:37Z

"You might not be into drawing anymore, but you never stop being an artist, Kara. You take your art everywhere with you, you just don't realize it."
Sometimes people do help, and sometimes they make you feel alone. But mostly I like to listen to the rain.

There's a game, that I play
There are rules, I had to break
There's mistakes, that I made
But I made them my way

So take this night
Wrap it around me like a sheet
I know I'm not forgiven
But I need a place to sleep

But the one person who will always help me the most is him.
"To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose, the next best."
-William M. Thackeray

such a lonely daayyy...not really, I just like that song.

2007-03-30T21:33:46Z

Woooo, I haven't written in this in a while. Probably because I didnt want to, but for now, I have nothing else to occupy my time with whilst I wait for my mumsy to finish eating so we can leave.
My room is dark, and it smells like summer. It's giving me a headache though, I can't decide if being happy is worth the pain yet. I'll stay in here anyways.
I have nothing to do today, not really. Other than going to wherever with my mum.
We're getting a new car-thing! We're replacing the van with a...CR-V?? It'll be cool, I got to decide the color. I want it to be sage-green. Pretteh. Anyways, I'm glad we are. I like the van, but I'm at a point where I just want to replace everything so I can grow, you know? You stop growing after a while if things stay stagnant. Hence, I am going through my room and getting rid of everything I dont NEED and replacing it with things I do. It'll be good.
*yawn* I'm bored of sitting here, writing about stuff. But my mother still isnt done.
I don't know what Im doing tomorrow...I have to call Ashley at some point, Rachel too. I said I'd do something with Eric, and I'm obviously going to see Josh in between all that. This weekend is going to be good, I like it.
Oh well, I guess Im going to go. Seeyaaa.

YAY!!

2007-03-11T04:32:50Z

Tonight was fun, and miserable, and horrible, but terrific.
We went to LCS for Josh's brother's benefit thing (they raised over 8,000 dollars! yay!)
There were so many people there, including Emily, Tim, Jackie??, Adam, Nick, Michelle, Mark, Paul, etc. It was nice.
But thennn the LCS nostalgia got a bit too much for me and I got really depressed and I didnt want to be there anymore, so Josh stayed outside with me while I cried. It sucked. I felt so bad, too, I wanted him to be with his friends..
But afterwards, we all stayed in the parking lot and had a good time- then I went back to Josh's where we do what we normally do haha
Lucas (Josh's brotha) made me a star! out of these cool things that you mold together with an iron. Its so pretty, I love it. And then he told me about Tekken!! And during that conversation, the only thing I could say was "ya, I played that all the time with Jimbie at the arcade! I was the Panda!" And then Lucas told me that the pandas name is Panda. Makes sense...:P
I'm bored now though, I want to go back..
And apparently I AM doing something tomorrow, with Joshy! (surprise surprise)
I wonder if Ashley did anything with Josh B. this weekend?

Oh, and to Ashley- I looked up your name on this website, and apparently more than 100 people in the US have the name "Ashley Hampton" :D

betterofflost @ 2007-03-10T11:29:00

2007-03-10T16:32:35Z

Ow...

Owch, my heart...

I think I'm having an episode...

Sonny Moore really has left FFTL...I tried my best to protect myself from the awful truth as long as I could, but no, I suppose I had to come across the proof sooner or later. This hurts, Sonny..This hurts..

betterofflost @ 2007-03-10T10:05:00

2007-03-10T15:09:10Z

I don't think I'm doing anything Sunday, want to do something?

=]

2007-03-09T00:29:56Z

I loved his note...He seems to be the only person these days that can really get me to that unbelievable happiness- the kind where even when he's not there I'm still nice to everyone- even the ghetto kids- just because I know I'll see him again soon. Of course I worry about what will happen when its not new and exciting, but he promised me that I mean too much to him for anything bad to happen. Its nice..
Today I chopped up carrots and lettuce for Charmander, Ethan will be bringing grapes too. Hopefully Charmander will like this stuff more than his bread and Cherios.

betterofflost @ 2007-03-07T16:09:00

2007-03-07T21:09:48Z

Today is cold...
Other than that, it was pretty good.

betterofflost @ 2007-03-04T09:34:00

2007-03-04T14:38:13Z

Hahahahaha...
I had a hallucination last night!! And it really is as much fun as it sounds XD
That scares me though, I trust my brain an awful lot- it could be telling me that I'm typing right now, but maybe I'm in some asylum somewhere....awesome.
Anyways, I think I'm going to Kohls today, doesn't that sound like fun!? Not particularly...But whatever, its something.
I'm...something.

betterofflost @ 2007-03-03T23:26:00

2007-03-04T04:27:27Z

I was really depressed tonight.
He cheered me up though..Hell, someone has to.

Oh, and I think I might get another LJ. Or just get rid of it altogether. I'm getting bored of this one..

*un pequeno GAAAAYYY* (watching The Soup)